Bitterness

I don’t know what to feel anymore… I feel so low today. I saw a message on my facebook page about this guy I’ve been dating before. Well I can’t really say it’s a romantic date, all I know is that we are always together at a certain period… Watching movies together, going to church together, doing almost everything together…it’s just that we never said the words I love you during those times…I admit, there is a certain feelings that grew deep inside me that I ignored for the longest time. I’ve only realized how much I wanted to be with him when I already resigned from the company where we both work.

Just earlier today, our common friend and former officemate posted something on my wall asking me, him and another friend to have a get together…I would really love to see them again. After all, we used to be friends. Then another friend made a comment on my wall saying I look like his girlfriend now. At first, I was shocked. I didn’t know that he is into a serious relationship right now…second, I didn’t know what reaction I should make knowing I look like her. Well, I admit, I was hurt. Hurt because I guess I still feel something special for this guy and second, because if her girlfriend look like me..why would he not settle for me then. Well, I know this is a wrong feeling, I mean , hey I’m now happy with what I have right now…I should also be happy for him. I’m quite confused right now that I don’t want to talk about it anymore after this. I guess I just need to let this feeling flow…and tomorrow, I would like to totally forget about it. I need to focus my energy into something of more importance. Anyways, I’m happy I was able to blog again…

Comments

Sayaka said…
believe it or not, i feel the same way. and that is one of the reasons why i am so down and depressed...almost same experience...

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