2/26/2011

Hurt Again

A dear friend caused me so much pain today. A friend I thought was one of my closest in the team, a new found friend I never thought I would win, someone who was before an aloof and a loner friend told me I'm "tsismosa" and "ahas" in Twitter. At first I've accepted it as a joke but when I checked on our previous Tweet conversations...I feel that there's "something" on his words. I tried chatting with him in Yahoo Messenger asking him what I did to deserve being called "tsismosa" as I can't recall saying his anything to anyone. It's just so happen that this friend confided a very deep secret to me and to another close friend. Though I know that whatever he shared with me that day is already an open secret loooong before pa, he just made a confirmation on it. My other friends are the first ones who knew about it  long before I've heard about it from another friend. It's not a big deal to me at all. I've known so many gay friends who came from the same situation and finally went out in the open. I thought I'm helping him to get out of his shell because we are already openly joking about it. I never saw any type of hesitation or denial whenever we would joke around regarding that kind of topic. Never knew he is already despising me.

I was really hurt. I never did anything to deserve this. My Saturday was ruined because of him. Instead of us going somewhere, I lost my interest and just stayed home. I don't want to lose him as a friend as we share common interests and he's one of my closest male friend but I hope he would realize the consequences of his actions. I hope he would explain to me and I hope he'll say sorry and that whatever he said in Twitter was just a joke. If he will not do the first move, I will just forget about everything. I will just be civil to him....I was deeply hurt. Till now, I'm still thinking about it but I know it would do me no good. I would just concentrate on happy thoughts. I will be going out with my hubby today to buy some stuff for the house, I hope I can forget about this hurtful feelings because of it.

2/04/2011

Subliminal Messages


Don't forget what you've learned about subliminal messages...







Internet Free Days

Sorry wasn't able to update you of what's going on for five days! It's because we forgot to pay for our monthly internet bill for the month. LOL. The payment is ready since the 30th of January and it is not due until February 3 but we've lost track of time and were so lazy going to the Bayad Center in Munoz. Finally, when we've learned that our landline has already been cut off, we hurriedly went to Waltermart Munoz and paid the bill so they could reactivate the service within the next 24 hours. Since our much awaited movie of Anthony Hopkins is now showing, we hurriedly bought some tickets which only cost us P260 for both. Waltermart movie house is so cold and cozy compared to SM and the tickets are much affordable too. It's been a scary experience inside the theater house as I thought we're the only ones inside. And since the movie we are about to watch is about exorcism, it felt so creepy. Good thing, someone at our back coughed which means there's someone somewhere with us inside. It has been a great movie, about a priest who lost his faith. About a priest who used to do exorcism but has also been possessed because he lost his faith. It's a great thing to be able to watch quality movies once in a while. Went home at around 8 pm and watched some programs at Nat Geo and Discovery Channels till 11pm. It's been another great day spent with the love of my life.