I AM MIMILANIE

I did'nt come for work today. Besides the fact na parang walang sense na pumasok ako today because of my failing scorecard...medyo im not feeling well din. Sunday lang ang off ko this week and yung next Saturday na. Ewan ko pero lately, I'm beginning to feel this job is not for me...parang hindi na ako masaya like before. I thought, kapag nalipat na kami sa ibang team and we're not under our previous tl...magiging mas maganda na ang lahat. Pero parang hindi na masaya. Parang before, we all have a mother who is very much concerned about our stats and our personal life...and then all of a sudden, nawala na yun. Yeah our new coach is wonderful. He always wants the best for all of us as well, we can do all we want basta hindi mapupuna okey lang. Pero parang kulang parin...I mean, there's no personal touch. Trabaho is trabaho. There is no way we can share with him something about ourselves...everything is very professional. Parang wala kaming madidiscuss sa kanya about our p...

hay, i don't know... for the past 3 days, i've been really upset. Im not so sure why. I became so irritable even in the littlest things there is. Maybe because of my failing scorecard. hay. i am not really used to this kind of feeling. I know I should have done better. last week - pasado na eh. nakakainis talaga, sayang ang qpb for the month (quality performance bonus) dalawang libo rin yun! huhuhu. Pero dibale I still have 4 days to pull up my scorecard. I just need to have 2 very satisfied na customers na sasagot ng survey, I also need to lower down my aht, argh, im the aht captain of the team and yet eto ako at isa sa mga nagpupull down sa team because of my high aht. Lately rin, I've been receiving a loooot of irate callers! kainis! ano bang magnet meron ako sa mga Amerikanong galit na galit sa mundo?! hay. I hope everything would get better tonight. I don't want to hate my job, I don't want to quit again. Not anymore.

After 2 days of not being able to go online kasi walang dsl because of the recent storm that shook Metro Manila (and most part of the Northern Luzon) - here I am at nagpupuyat to update this blog. It's already 3:30 am but I stil have so many things in mind na I want to share and since this is the most personal blog I own kaya dito ko sya ipopost. Anyways, yesterday and today is my rest day and tomorrow is my vacation leave...it's San Juan day tomorrow and of course - as always, present ang buong barkada kina Odetsky. His dad is one of the Barangay Chairmans so talagang bonggacious sila pag naghahanda. I am so excited especially now that Jet (Pipa's lover) already purchased a car! Wow! Odette told me that Pipa and Jet will fetch us so we can go together with them to Odette's place. Yun ang good news, syempre tipid pamasahe. Hehehe. Anyways, just finished posting articles for my new blog www.blogearner.net - it's actually my fifth blog and it tackles about how I am ...

Hay naku, busy busyhan ulit the whole week. Medyo nag-aadjust pa ako sa night shift...grabe. My shift now is from 9:30 pm to 6:30 am and usually sa araw...5 hours lang usually ang tulog ko, buti sana kung hindi na ako inaantok pagkagising ko (usually @ around 7:30 pm) pero day, antok na antok ang lola niyo! syaks. ang hirap talaga pag dika pinanganak ng may "golden spoon" sa bibig noh, kelangan mong magpakahirap kumita lang ng pera na kelangan mo ring gastusin to sustain your lifestyle. Parang paikot ikot lang...haay, medyo bitterness ang emote ko ngayon kasi lately hindi kumpleto ang tulog ko dahil sa pagbabago ng shift namin lately from morning to night. Sigh. Nakakapagod na rin magwork, sometimes I really think of having a vacation kahit na few days lang and if I can afford it, sana out of the country. I might request for a leave of absence for one week lang naman and maglyalyamerda lang ako. Hmmm...come to think of it, why not diba. I've been working for almost 6 ye...

just came home at around 6pm from the office. it's mark yu's birthday today (?) and i'm lucky to have a free lunch courtesy of the birthday boy plus a dessert of krispy kremes doughnuts. Deny to death ang bakla na near 30 na sya eh isang taon lang naman ang tinanda ko sa hitad. (bakla is just an expression but si mark yu ay isa sa mga kakaunti kong friends sa cvg na straight talaga, nga ba? nyahahaaha) Nagdate sila ni Ice sa Kitchen (uyyy something fishy there) and nagpat ake out nalang ako ng double cheezeburger and fries. lately kasi di na ako kumakain ng rice puro bread lang. diet? himala! hahaha. Inokray okray niya yung phone ko eh nokia8810 lang naman yung sa kanya - at sinira pa yung stylus ko. hmp! pero kahit na inokray okray ako eh lab ko parin sya kasi dinalhan nya ako ng lunch. o sya post ko picture nya dito na kinunan niya mismo sa inokray okray nyang china phone ko hehehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK! BIRTHDAY din pala ni Barbie doll kate! Happy Birthday ganda! Me gif...

I MISS BLOGGING...I REALLY DO... ...kaso pag sinasabi ko to sa sarili ko, naiinis lang ako eh. EH BAKIT KASI DI KA MAGBLOG???? aber??? namimiss mo pala e di gawin mo?! (parang sinasabi ng utak ko with matching irap pa on the side)... eh kasi naman, pag uwi ko... pagod na pagod na ko. ewan ko ba. lately pag umuuwi ako ng hapon (mga around 5pm) inaantok na ako kaagad. Parang wala na akong energy. Kaya kahit na gustong gusto kong magblog...parang wala akong magandang maisulat - although parang andami dami kong gustong ikwento. haaay, sana ... sana ... bukas di ako antukin ng makwento ko naman yung mga nasa utak ko lately. for now, pahinga na muna ako. as usual...inaantok na ako. hay, alas syete pa lang ano ba yan! tomorrow, agenda ko...magpopost ako dito. iuupdate ko mga blogs ko. Pati yung ibang mga paid opps ko nagexexpire na...hay, i need to have a drive. I need to have the strength to blog again. kelangan ko nang mag havitall like my ate shawie. sige, bibili ako bukas sa mer...

I'm letting go of something today... I think this is the best thing to do, para di ko na nahuhurt yung taong lagi nalang nasasaktan dahil sa mga actions, words at mga childish acts ko. I can't bear the thought na everytime na lang may naooffend sya mga ginagawa at sinasabi ko na. I admit, minsan (or most of the time) , talagang wala akong preno pag nag joke - it's me. It's either you hate me or you love me. If you want to be my friend, you need to understand that it's just my way of making people laugh. If somehow, I've hurted someone's feelings because of that - she could just tell me..."uy foul yun, naooffend ako dun, wag na ganun". If she is indeed a friend, she would know that I am just JOKING. PERIOD . I don't deserve being treated like what I experienced earlier. A friend got mad at me today (as always) because of a joke I said na i did'nt mean. It's just an ordinary and plain joke, and she thought nagyayabang ako. Ako pa? E...